aaaaaaaaaaaa.. ya mungkin teriak sedikit bisa ngebantu.. jadi.. aku sudah tinggal di jepang selama 6 BULAN!! APA?! SERIUSAN?! ngga bakal bisa percaya, aku baru sadar pas aku lagi sisiran eh kok ada yang beda, kok apa ya ada yang aneh, rasanya kok panjang banget.. trus aku hitung hitung pake jari (pake caranya orang jepang lah, haha penting aja nggak ini) dan ternyata emang sudah 6 BULAN!!. aku paksa paksain buat percaya kalo cuma punya setengah tahun lagi, terus ada perasaan kayak "AKHIRNYA! aku pulang terus ketemu kakak temen temen, pergi ke sekolah! YEY!!" tapi ada juga disisi lainnya "waduh! AFS harusnya bikin program ini 5 tahun! setahun mah ga cukup! gimana pas pisahan sama hostfamily sama temen temen guru, aduh!!!"
i hope you got what i trying to tell you, it's hard to explain except you're in my position as an exchange student right now.
semoga ngerti deh gimana perasaan aku sekarang,. susah buat ngejelasin kecuali kamu diposisi aku sekarang sebagai siswa exchange
a few fact after my 6 great months here, (included unimportant fact that maybe you dont even care =.=")
fakta fakta setelah kehidupan 6 bulanku di Jepang (termasuk fakta yang ngga penting yang kamu ga akan peduli)
1. i do can speak japanese (ehm, ok just for daily conversation), but i proud of it
2. i gain weight , YES I AM! 10 kilos, believe it or not
3. i make a lot of friends here, mostly the other ES (exchange student)
4. i DONT become looks like japanese girl, at all
5. i love my hostfamily just like i love my real family (MY SISTER)
6. i have a GREAT teacher
7. 80% of my day speaking japanese and the other 20% is english
8. and thats weird cause english IS NOT EVEN MY NATIVE LANGUAGE (INDONESIA RAYA!)
9. finally i know how it feels to have a GRANDMOTHER
10. how it feels to relax when i came back from school and my hostmom was there ready for diner and i dont have to think about what should i eat tonight or tomorrow cause it is already served, (maybe you dont understand this feeling, cause it only happens when you are a high schooler orphan who ever lived all ALONE)
1. aku memang udah bisa bahasa jepang (ehm, ok cuma percakapan sehari hari sin) tapi aku bangga kok)
2. aku gendutan, YA! 10 kilo! percaya atau ngga
3. aku punya banyak temen baru, kebanyakan sesama ES
4. aku ngga berubah menjadi cewek jepang, sama sekali ngga
5. aku suka banget sama hostfamily aku
6.guru guru aku baikaaan banget
7. 80% dalam sehari aku ngomong pake bahasa jepang, 20%sisanya pake bahasa inggris
8. dan itu aneh karena bahasa inggris itu BUKAN BAHASA IBUKU! (INDONESIA RAYA!)
9. akhirnya ngerti gimana rasanya punya NENEK
10. ngerti juga gimana rasanya tenang pas pulang sekolah, capek, eh ternyata hostmom udah siap sama makan malam, yang artinya aku ga perlu mikiran makan apa hari ini atau besok karena semuanya sudah siap (mungkin yg ini kamu juga ga ngerti kecuali kamu anak SMA yatim piatu yang pernah tinggal sendirian)
11. understand how does MISSING someone you loved, not just a word, but the feeling.
12. i know who i am now, i know what i want to become, how can i make it and how to face my daily problem
13. i was so embarrassed when i remember few years or a year ago when i reacted like a little girl facing her problem with tears, (sorry for that, but i hate those time in the 16 years of my life!)
14. japanese girl is not like i think they are, totally different
15. and yes japanse boys also
16. i never get sick here
17. you know, being an exchange student is not just about having fun, its hard sometimes.
18. i feel sorry for those people who envy of me, i passed the tests, and the program know that i can handle it, what is their probs? come on guys we're all beautiful in our own way, and you're special!
19. i never post tweet on twitter in japanese (a lot of ES do that with their host country's language, i just dont think i need to, since the people who read my tweets is my indonesian friend, and i dont wanna make them think "oh so you wanna brag about your language ability now?!" honestly, that's the last think i want.
20. i think about my friends A LOT, i miss them
11. ngerti gimana rasanya yg bener bener RINDU sama orang yang kamu cintai, ngga cuma kata kata tapi rasanya
12. aku sekarang ngerti siapa aku, mau jadi apa, gimana mewujudkannya, dan juga gimana mengahdapi masalah masalah
13. malu banget kalo ingat beberapa tahun atau tahun lalu pas aku pake nangis nangis kaya bayi pas dapet masalah upil
14. cewek2 jepang ga kaya yang aku bayangkan
15. cowoknya juga
16. aku disini ga pernah sakit
17. tau ngga sih, jadi siswa exchang itu ga selamanya senang senang, kadang ada susahnya juga, jangan judge sembarangan deh ya :D
18. kasian sama orang2 yang iri sama aku, aku sudah lolos testnya orang2 yakin aku bisa, dan aku ngga ngerasa pernah menyombongkan diri langsung atau tidak langsung, jadi masalahnya apa? ayolah, jadikan ini ambisi jadikan pendorong semangat, bukanny menjatuhkan :D kita semua hebat kita semua sepsial di jalan kita masing masing
19. aku ngga pernah nge post tweet pake bahasa jepang, sama sekali (kebanyakan siswa exchange ngepost pake bahasa negara host mereka, tapi aku ngga mau temen2 aku mikir "hem, iya deh yang sekarang sudah bisa bahasa jepang SOK!" jujur aja, itu hal terakhir yg aku mau.
20. aku mikirin temen temen aku SERING banget, rindu banget sama mereka
21. i felt so bad, when i cant be there when my best friends held their birthday party, its not about the party, its about my attendance as their bestfriends.
22. i take shower once a day
23. i have a German bestfriend here, (LENA)
24. i dont study in my hostschool, i only study japanese all the time, every second, it's always LISTENING test, READING TEST, and SPEAKING test, it's a Japanese Test live. and i love iT!!
25. i wrote a letter to my friends once. and recieved no reply, haha i know it's 2012 , and the internet connection just make it sounds old.
26. i forgot how the taste of Indonesian Rice
27. i hate SUMMER. too hot, even for a tropic girl like me.
28. i cried so hard once in my school. its last week, i just dont feel alright, everythings seemed wrong, and i was sooooo tired of everything. but im ok now. not a prob
29. my school life is hard
30. my school friends is included to the hardest part of my program
21. berasa ga enak banget pas ngga bisa datang ke acara ultahnya bestfriends, bukan party nya sih cuma kehadiaran akunya itu loh sebagai bestfriend mereka :"(
22. mandi cuma sekali sehari
23. punya temen deket banget dari jerman (LENA)
24. aku ga belajar di sekolah, seharian cuma belajar bahasa jepang, setiap detik selalu aja kaya ulangan bahasa jepang , Listening Test, reading test, sampai pastinya speaking test, hidup di ulangan bahasa jepang dan aku suka itu! HAHA
25. aku nulis surat ke temen2 aku di indonesia, dan ga ada balasan satu pun, haha tau kok sekarang 2012, dan itu bikin ini kedengarannya jadul banget
26. lupa rasanya nasi indonesia
27. ga suka sama musim panas! paanAAAAAAAAAS BANGET! ga suka! bahkan buat cewek tropis kaya aku
28. aku nangis sekali kaya bayi disekolah, minggu lalu, ngga tau aja semuanya berasa salah, capek, stress ini itu, capek pokoknya, tapi sekarang udah baikan kok :D
29. kehidupan disekolah sulit
30. temen2 disekolah termasuk bagian paling suliiit!
31. and yes! the school hours, is the hardest part. 7 to 7,
32. during school day: eat-school-school-school-home-dinner-sleep
33. never wore a dress!
34. nervous for my JLPT (japanese test) next december
35. feel forgotten
36. still knowing the gossips in my indonesians school! HELL YEAH!
37. i even have a crush now
38. and i knew someone in indonesia have a crush on me and it feels like, indomie limau kuit (IT'S GREAT)
39. sometimes i just dont feel like belong in japan or indonesia
40. do i look like asian? like 'asian' those western people named?
31. dan pastinya jam sekolah itu paling capek. jam 7 sampe jam 7
32. selama hari sekolah: makan-sekolah-sekolah-sekolah-rumah-makan-tidur
33. ngga pernah make dress
34. gugup sama tes bahasa jepang desember nanti
35. merasa dilupakan ._.
36. masih tau aja sama gosip di sekolah kok! PASTINYA! HAHA
37. bahkan aku punya gebetan sekarang
38. dan di indonesia juga HAHAHAHA dan rasanya itu kaya indomie limau kuit! (ENAK)
39. kadang berasa ngga dimana mana, ga di jepang ga di indonesia
40. aku kaya asian ga sih? ya kayak orang2 di barat ngata ngatain ASIAN ASIAN gitu ._.
41. i proud of my skin and eyes color, brownie, love brown love chocolate
42. feel sorry sometimes for many japanese who try to make everything on their body to looks like European, (dyed they hair, put a 5cm make up, contact lenses) i mean dont tryng to be someonle else, be proud to be a japanese Girls :D, i do proud to be an Indonesian, feels sexy HAHA
43. ever tasted japanese cake, never want to eat indonesian cake any more
44. ate beef a lot
45. i think i ever ate pork , without knowing it, there's no special thing about the taste, same
46. and if you think about japan, and all you can think is about that 'porn' things, be better go for another USEFUL things, cause i hate it . i mean HATE! it when i said 'yeah i'll go to japan' and the answers is all about the porn they watched, i mean COME ON GUYS! its all you know about JAPAN?!
47. i love INDONESIA
41. bangga sama warna kulit dan mata aku sendiri, kecoklatan, suka sama coklat dan coklat
42. kasian kadang kadang sama cewek2 jepang yang kebelet banget keliatan kaya 'bule' ngecat rambut lah, pake kontak lensa lah, sampe 5cm make up, bela belain buat keliatan kaya mbak mbak dari eropa, bangga aja dong jadi cewe jepang, kaya aku bangga banget jadi Indonesian, berasa seksi aja haha
43. kalo udah ngerasain gimana kue di jepang, kue di indonesia lewaaaat..
44. makan daging sapi hampir setiap hari
45. kayanya aku pernah kemakan daging babi sih, ga ada yg spesial sama rasanya, sama aja
46. dan kalo kamu mikirin tentang jepang dan yg muncul di pikiran kamu cuma hal hal porno itu, belajar deh sana, belajar sama hal yang lebih berguna, karena aku benci banget, benciii banget setiap aku bilang 'iya aku nanti ke jepang' terus balasannya cuma hal hal pandangan sempit orang2 itu tentang jepang, aduh AYODONG!! itu aja emangnya yang kamu tau tentang jepang!?
47,. CINTA MATI SAMA TANAH AIR INDONESIA
48. wanna know who i miss the most? they're my mama and abah
49. the first thing i'll do when im home is go to their grave and tell a whole year story, for serious. 110% serious, cant you see my face?
50. i'll surprised my friend, and will never tell the exact date im home, HAHA
51. and i have TONS of plans to do, study, scholarship, achievement, become number one in my school, dont judge me! i am ambitious! i just realize that "MY FUTURE IS NOT THAT FAR, IT IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES" and i SHOULD do my BEST for it, no matter what
52. i already, purely forgive all the people who hurt me, yup, those people.
53. know the fact that i have to translate it to indonesian, and said to myself "come on, go on" ok and here i go!
48. mau tau siapa yang paling aku rindu? mama sama abah
49. hal pertama yang bakal aku lakuin pas aku pulang, ke kubur mereka terus ceritain pengalaman setahun aku disini, seriusan, ga bercanda.
50. aku bakalan kasih kejutan ketemen temen aku dan ga bakalan kasih tau tanggal pasti kepulangan aku he he he
51. dan aku punya banyak banget rencana pas sudah touch down indonesia, belajar, beasiswa, prestasi, no.1 paralel di sekolah, jangan nilai macem2 deh, aku emang ambisius dan baru nyadar kalo masa depan itu aku sendiri yang nentuin dan masa depan itu sendiri sudah ada didepan mata aku!
52. aku sudah sepenuh hati memaafkan orang orang yang telah menzalimi ku di tahun tahun sebelumnya
53. dan akhirnya aku selesai ngetranslate ini dan selamat tidur!! :*
I MISS EVERYTHING!
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